Since you don't feel bad when you lied to me, why should i care about protecting your rights?
You told me you don't know that jimmy person AT ALL. When i first saw kitty's blog, i mentioned the name JIMMY to you. What kind of face did you give me? And i stupidly believed that you wouldn't lie to me. I believe that the jimmy person is just qiaoying's friend like what YOU told me. Because i didn't want to doubt you.
Following that, i saw kitty's blog again which says you guys when drinking. You told me you weren't there and there was only kitty, qy, jimmy and weijun or dunno whoever the fuck. Again, i believe you. YOU SAID YOU DIDNT DRINK. I BELIEVE YOU. I told weini that i wanted to doubt you. I wanted to check. BUT in the fucking end. I did not. Because i chose to believe you. END UP?
You said you didn't wanna tell me because you were afraid that i might be angry but did you even use your brain & think? What will happen if i find out? You know i'm sensitive, at the same time you shld know that i will find out one day. So? everyday bo bi at home that i wouldn't find out isit?
And oh, don't fucking rake up the b's matter again. It's all in the past. Yes i lied to you but it's two different matters now okay. You chose to forgive me, why are you still talking about it like you fucking regret it now? Just because i BEGGED you to forgive me so you did? Don't tell me it's like a yin ying to you because you already chose to forgive me.
You know i hate it when you go drinking. You know best about me. BUT WHY?? WHY DID YOU STILL LIE? WHY DO I HAVE TO FREAKING FIND OUT ALL THESE LANJIAO TAIJI WHEN WE'RE JUST BACK TO NORMAL NOW?
SOMETIMES I JUST HOPE I CAN JUST DIE AWAY. SOMETIMES I REALISE ITS NOT LIKE I DON'T HAVE THE COURAGE TO DIE ANYMORE. I DO. I REALLY DO. I'M REALLY TIRED OF LIFE. I'M TIRED OF LIVING, FOLKS. i used to be afraid when i picked up a knife. now i don't tremble anymore. i used to be afraid when i look down from the 14th floor. now i don't fear a shit anymore.
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